Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Very Discouraged

Here it comes. Run away, now, if you dislike the posts where I'm brutally honest about how I feel.

I'm just gonna jump right in. We paid to expedite our home study. We were told that would take 6-8 weeks at the most pending our backgrounds coming back in a timely fashion. They did. We finally have our home study in hand today, almost 12 weeks after the contract was signed. We won't be getting a refund of our expedited fees ($500). We did, however, receive an additional bill, today. A post-placement agreement (for our follow-up visits after K's adoption is complete) that says we'll pay $1400 for our 4 post-placement visits. Here's the kicker and yes, it feels like a kick in the gut, they want their $1400, now! As in, they are holding 2 pieces of paperwork that we need for our dossier hostage until we pay the $1400.

My anxiety level is through the roof and I'm looking at our account and realized that we're still $600 short of what we need to send our USCIS application in. Now, we do have a golf tournament that's happening on Saturday, but most of those checks are going straight to Reece's Rainbow to our grant. In other words, we can't access it until we have a travel date. Are you following me? We can't take the next step in this process without another $600, rapidly followed by $1400 donated to our personal account.

I'm asking you to pray. Pray and believe with us that God is going to meet this need. That God is going to give us grace to continue to walk with integrity this path that He's placed us on. Pray that we will represent Christ well to the people who look this way. Even, when our flesh cries out, "That's not FAIR!" It's not fair. Not even a little bit, but God...

I think, God is looking for a chance to show-off. We're in that place, right now, of complete dependency. We have nothing left to give. We can only humbly ask that you help us. There's a chip-in on the right hand side that goes directly to our paypal account. We're just going to drag the mountain into the presence of the Lord and pray that it will melt like wax.

Pray, Adopt, Advocate, Support...

Hidden in Christ,


  1. I wish I had something to give financially, but you will most certainly be in my prayers, and you are correct in that it is HIM in control, not us. So sorry you're going through this right now.

  2. You know he will melt it. Dave's registration will come directly to you on Saturday, so there's $160 already. Praying that all will fall into place. It will!

  3. I only see the Reece's Rainbow link.

    1. At the top of the right hand column is the chipin. It's possible that the chipin was down briefly overnight. That happens sometimes. Thanks for wanting to help :)We're so grateful to everyone who has prayed, given and left encouragement for us. We are truly blessed.

  4. Our God is bigger than any number that they can give! He has a purpose in this anxiety-ridden trial! Praying my heart out that He gives you the money in unexpected ways and blesses your socks off! Thanks for sharing your journey!!

  5. What agency are you using? We used KTA and they took all our money and didnt do a thing. It was horrible! Found out they did it to a bunch of people. Hopefully you arent using them. I will talk to my husband and see what we can do. God will meet this need.

    Be blessed